I AM USED TO THIS.

kaya ko nang wala ka sa buhay ko. nasanay na ako ngayon. magpka-busy ka n forever. wala na akong pakealam sayo o kahit sateng dalawa. sanay na talaga ko ngayon. masasabe kong kaya ko na ngayon ang mag-isa ulet. ang sabe mo saken date wag ako masanay na ganto ako pero ikaw ang gumagawa ng dahilan ng masanay ako sa ganito mo. 

kahapon  pinapamdali kitang magkita sayo sabe mo nga. ayoko lang naman na maghintay nanaman sayo ng pagkatagal-tagal. pag magkikita tayo palage mo na lang akong pinaghihintay. mahiya ka naman diba? babae ako tapos ako paghihintayin mo. pero pag ikaw ang naghinty? galit na galit ka pa dyan! 

ayoko na, tama na, nung umalis ka na hindi tayo okay tapos ngayon na busy ka masyado. bahala ka na sa buhay mo. maghanap ka na ng bago mong girl friend.

I WILL MISS YOU KIENO :( (i am missing you)

today will be his 5th day of living here with us if that tragic event didn't happen. :( i miss him so much. that cuddly little thing. poor cat he died fighting for himself from that 3 stupid dogs.


it happened yesterday. around 4 in the morning. i was half awakened by Xander's barks.And then after a second I heard a  loud meow so i got up quickly and searched for Kieno. I went to the porch, i didn't saw any dark/black movement so i took a look outside to see what the dogs are hovering around. and then there was a Kieno lying helpless on the cold ground. I called for Kieno but he didn't approached or made any motion. I yelled at the dogs to stop them biting Kieno but they didn't listened. I was in panicked so i woke Mheng to help me get Kieno inside because i was so afraid to get near at them because the dogs might bite me. And i am also aware that some of them has their Rabis injection already expired. I know Mheng could  seized them When I directed him where Kieno was , he quickly carried Kieno back inside the house.

Mheng was calling Kieno but Kieno didn't move but he was still hot. His body is not yet cold or stiff so we still have a hope that he was still alive and just lost his conscience. But Kieno didn't woke up. The other family members woke up to see what was happening. My mom and my eldest brother blamed Mheng for what had happened. It is really his fault. Its his fault why it all happened to Kieno. I am too blame him for that. He didn't secured Kieno. He was the one who brought Kieno in our house in the first place.


When Kieno was not moving in front of me after Mheng brought him in i was really really crying hard. I can't believe what happened and everything, Mheng carried again Kieno to put him in the table. As I said he's not yet cold so we covered him in  pieces of cloth to keep him warm.  My mom prayed for Kieno for his life. I am too was also praying for Kieno. Asking God to give back his life because I dearly love that cat. :(



We got back to our bed to rest and will just get back on Kieno after we gained enough energy to face everything again..7am we woke up again. But Kieno was already dead. His body is cold and stiff. :( no hope for his life back.

FUCK. i miss him so much. i will not find another cat like him anymore. i love him so much. *cry, and now i can't move on. its like i'm traumatized (like what ate said).



KIENO! :(

PRACTICE PRACTICE

tomorrow LucidSake will practice in a band rehearsal studio for our next upcoming gig. yey! I've waited long enough to have another gig performance. :D we'll have our practice tomorrow at 10am. I dunno why they scheduled for an early practice. normally we practice afternoon or at night. hmmm. maybe they have something in their minds since LucidSake will reunite again. haha. :))

Khaye will play bass for us again since my sister wont play with us anymore because of her personal issues. err. So its a LucidSake reunion.

SLEEPY HEAD

okay. antok na ako. matutulog na ako. goodnight. :) *yawn

YOU WERE RIGHT AND I WAS WRONG

i am sorry for what i did this morning. :( i didn't mean to be hard on you. it just happened without me noticing it. i am really really sorry. I will think twice or more before i make decisions. 

thank you for still loving me. I love you so much. I appreciated you staying with me no matter what i do. you really love me so much. and i will never see that special love to other guys who are just wanting to have a game in a bed.  you are a blessing that God gave to me.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. :)

SIAMESE CAT NAMED KIENO!

as i was about to sleep kanina my sister called me and told me that we have a new cat. He's name is Kieno. he's color black, a Siamese Cat. :D i wanted to hug him tight. hehehe. maybe i will do the loving tomorrow when i regained my energy again. hehe.

I WANT THIS TO BE A HAPPY SUMMER

i have been staying here in my house for half a school year. it is summer NOW! i want this to be a happy and memorable summer for me. :) 

it's been a week that i've lie low in front of the computer and now i am getting addicted again. i should be on my bed right now sleeping but i can't even touch the door knob of my room. the temptation of the computer is irresistible. its like i wanna make out with this. err. Just kidding. Lol. i am not a freak to make out with this computer.

ANEMIA?!

oh yes. i am indeed anemic. :( ate malou checked my BP at yun nga low blood ako. i forgot the exact count of my systolic and diastolic. haaay. my head often aches. akala ko naman high blood na ang nararamdaman kong pagsakit ng batok at ulo ko. ang sabe saken parehas lang pala ang nararamdaman pag low blood or high blood ang isang tao. my mom told me too sleep early and take vitamins which i stopped taking since i stopped attending school.

yesterday i took a vitamin but today i didn't took one. i'm too lazy to take one though i can feel my head aching again. . .

PARAMORE FEVER

i smelled like Paramore for 2 days! hahaha.

PARA THRILLA IN MANILA

 wow. we went to the PARAMORE CONCERT! and its a hell of  concert. sobrang sakit na ng paa ko and i was really really tired from the journey etc. by 4pm pumila na kame sa labas ng MOA Concert Grounds kase ang dame na ding taong mga nakpila nun. medyo mahaba na din ang pila nun. pero sanay na din naman ako sa pila.

ang front act nila; Callalily. WTF. i hate them. kahit man lang sana Urbandub or Duster na lang ang kinuhang front act nila. nung nakita ko ang callalily pakiramdam ko lalong naramdaman ko ang pagod. frabbit!

so skip skip skip. (bored ako sa performance ng front act)

there's hayley's band mates.

and there Hayley goes. haha.

The instant Hayley came out the crowd gave a loud excitement. haha.

and the ground is really shaking. you can really feel it. of course when you're not jumping.

the audience really really jumped. of course include me with them. Lol.

intro nila ang Ignorance.

In their intro song, you can really feel the fun. haha.

i took some videos of them. :)

ang likot likot talaga nila. Jeremy did his stunts. haha. too bad i didn't took a video of him doing it,

Isang song lang ang hindi sila ganong naglikot, THE ONLY EXCEPTION. of course.

after their last song they got very very wild. Zac threw Hayley's tambourine. Some threw the cymbals twice. I was hoping that they will also throw thier electric guitars. haha. but they didn't. they must have love their guitars so much.

Hayley was my sister for one night. She promised that they'll be back. :) so those people who didn't make it to the Paramore Concert still have a chance to watch them in thier come back. so don't loose hope guys. :)

NAALALA KO LANG

open those eyes of yours and watch the stars with me. i'll be sleeping tight tonight just to see you smirking at me.

:)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO :)

yesterday we celebrated kuya's birthday. but yet i don't know his age. :)) all i know is he is near to 30. maybe he's already 30 years old. me and my hubby cooked spaghetti and chicken for him.so when they got home thet'll have food to eat. its just a lil celebration. mom bought a cake for him. :D when i saw the cake i joked   my kuya because its pink. i said, "wow. pang bading. pink!" everyone knows that i was joking. :))

JS PROMENADE

tonight is my sister's prom. yesterday i asked my sis to wear her cocktail dress, footwear, and accessories. i was in great awe when i saw my sister came out of the room. wearing her prom dress. we danced together because she asked me to practice her dance number. after, i sat down. finishing  Zagu which she gave to me. then i turned my focus on my sis. and i was getting my eyes teared up. seeing how much she grew. she ain't a baby anymore but she will always be my baby sister. i wish my dad's here to see her.

NEW GC UNIFORM

nakita ko kahapon ang uniform ng GC. ang ganda. then i also met my old HS classmate, Gerika. naka-uniform ng GC. dun ko sakanya nalaman na yun na ang bagong uniform ng GC, ang ganda in fairness t bumagay sakanya. hindi ko alam na bago na pala ang uniform ng GC. napag-iiwanan na talaga ako ng mga happenings sa Olongapo.

miss ko na talagang mag-aral. :(
gusto ko na pumasok at mag-aral.

ANG PAMANGKIN KO

sabe saken ng pamngkin ko kuya niya daw si Jun Pyo at Ji Hoo tapus ate naman daw niya si Jan Di. pupunta nga daw sila mamaya sa bahay nila eh. haha. tapos may psalubong daw sila sakanya, maraming maraming laruan daw. hahaha. :))


KIDS!

CINEMATIC

i went out today to watch a movie. siyempre may kasama ako pero hindi si Lover ang kasama ko this time.
What's now showing in cinema 2?
Paano na Kaya (kimerald love team)
that's what they chose to watch. but if i will be the one to choose i woould prefer foreign movie. sa mga Filipino love teams medyo nababaduyan kase ako. but there are also love team movies that gives me hivee jiveez. :))

mas maganda pala manuod ng local movie sa sine. maganda din ang napanuod ko. may mga times nga na gusto ko nang umiyak. haha. but since may katangkaran ako at mapapansen agad ang expression ng mukha ko dahil sa kaunting sinag mula sa screen iniiwasan kong ma-carried away ako sa pinapanuod. ko. hehe.

this is my first time to watch a local movie in a cinema. usually i watch foreign movies and  just wait for the local movie to be shown in CinemaOne. hahaha.


today was a lucky day.
may 1,000 ako. binigay ni uncle Louis.
thanks to him. even thoough he's not my real uncle he is very kind to us.
we went out like we were  a real family. haha.
i wish ate is here to enjoy todays moments. :(

PARAMORE CONCERT TICKET.

yay! last tuesday nagpunta ako sa olongapo to meet with janina and aprill. I don't know what it is all about. Aprill doesn't know it too. Its Janina who set the date for the meeting. So the meeting place is ministop. Pagkadating ko andun din sila Joyce and Shiprah (HS friends). Tapus pinaupo ako nila nin then aprill took out the camera and she set it to video mode. She's recording in whatever i'm goin to say. Tapus janina hand out a PARAMORE CONCERT TICKET (oh yeah).... :)


so magkasama kameng tatlo na manunuod ng concert. haha

VITAMINS IN JUST THREE DAYS. :(

sayang nman ang ilang weeks kong pagpapapayat. nasira lang kase uminom ako ng vitamins. THREE DAYS lang yon huh. tsk. bck to zero nanaman tuloy ako neto. >.<

Chaw-Chaw

yiii. sabe ng hubbyQ bibilhan niya ako ng chaw-chaw. haha. i am so excited to see the puppy. :D I already informed my good friend nin about my incoming puppy. I amvery very excited. Atleast may malalaro na ako yung talagang masasabe kong aken. haha. kahapon nga nag-search na agad ako sa google ng mga breeds ng aso. ang napili ko talaga ay chaw-chaw since siya din naman ang nag-open ng topic na yun. Ang other option pa ni hubby ay Siberian Husky. Yun ng gusto kong dog kaso ng sinbe ko yung maliit liit muna para masasama kong gumala. haha. :))

HAPPY NEW YEAR

bagong taon nanaman ito. :) i hope maging maganda ang takbo ng buhay ko this 2010.
MY OWN NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION;
1. Diet
2.Think Positive.
3. Learn to control my temper.