I AM USED TO THIS.

kaya ko nang wala ka sa buhay ko. nasanay na ako ngayon. magpka-busy ka n forever. wala na akong pakealam sayo o kahit sateng dalawa. sanay na talaga ko ngayon. masasabe kong kaya ko na ngayon ang mag-isa ulet. ang sabe mo saken date wag ako masanay na ganto ako pero ikaw ang gumagawa ng dahilan ng masanay ako sa ganito mo. 

kahapon  pinapamdali kitang magkita sayo sabe mo nga. ayoko lang naman na maghintay nanaman sayo ng pagkatagal-tagal. pag magkikita tayo palage mo na lang akong pinaghihintay. mahiya ka naman diba? babae ako tapos ako paghihintayin mo. pero pag ikaw ang naghinty? galit na galit ka pa dyan! 

ayoko na, tama na, nung umalis ka na hindi tayo okay tapos ngayon na busy ka masyado. bahala ka na sa buhay mo. maghanap ka na ng bago mong girl friend.

I WILL MISS YOU KIENO :( (i am missing you)

today will be his 5th day of living here with us if that tragic event didn't happen. :( i miss him so much. that cuddly little thing. poor cat he died fighting for himself from that 3 stupid dogs.


it happened yesterday. around 4 in the morning. i was half awakened by Xander's barks.And then after a second I heard a  loud meow so i got up quickly and searched for Kieno. I went to the porch, i didn't saw any dark/black movement so i took a look outside to see what the dogs are hovering around. and then there was a Kieno lying helpless on the cold ground. I called for Kieno but he didn't approached or made any motion. I yelled at the dogs to stop them biting Kieno but they didn't listened. I was in panicked so i woke Mheng to help me get Kieno inside because i was so afraid to get near at them because the dogs might bite me. And i am also aware that some of them has their Rabis injection already expired. I know Mheng could  seized them When I directed him where Kieno was , he quickly carried Kieno back inside the house.

Mheng was calling Kieno but Kieno didn't move but he was still hot. His body is not yet cold or stiff so we still have a hope that he was still alive and just lost his conscience. But Kieno didn't woke up. The other family members woke up to see what was happening. My mom and my eldest brother blamed Mheng for what had happened. It is really his fault. Its his fault why it all happened to Kieno. I am too blame him for that. He didn't secured Kieno. He was the one who brought Kieno in our house in the first place.


When Kieno was not moving in front of me after Mheng brought him in i was really really crying hard. I can't believe what happened and everything, Mheng carried again Kieno to put him in the table. As I said he's not yet cold so we covered him in  pieces of cloth to keep him warm.  My mom prayed for Kieno for his life. I am too was also praying for Kieno. Asking God to give back his life because I dearly love that cat. :(



We got back to our bed to rest and will just get back on Kieno after we gained enough energy to face everything again..7am we woke up again. But Kieno was already dead. His body is cold and stiff. :( no hope for his life back.

FUCK. i miss him so much. i will not find another cat like him anymore. i love him so much. *cry, and now i can't move on. its like i'm traumatized (like what ate said).



KIENO! :(

PRACTICE PRACTICE

tomorrow LucidSake will practice in a band rehearsal studio for our next upcoming gig. yey! I've waited long enough to have another gig performance. :D we'll have our practice tomorrow at 10am. I dunno why they scheduled for an early practice. normally we practice afternoon or at night. hmmm. maybe they have something in their minds since LucidSake will reunite again. haha. :))

Khaye will play bass for us again since my sister wont play with us anymore because of her personal issues. err. So its a LucidSake reunion.

SLEEPY HEAD

okay. antok na ako. matutulog na ako. goodnight. :) *yawn

YOU WERE RIGHT AND I WAS WRONG

i am sorry for what i did this morning. :( i didn't mean to be hard on you. it just happened without me noticing it. i am really really sorry. I will think twice or more before i make decisions. 

thank you for still loving me. I love you so much. I appreciated you staying with me no matter what i do. you really love me so much. and i will never see that special love to other guys who are just wanting to have a game in a bed.  you are a blessing that God gave to me.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. :)

SIAMESE CAT NAMED KIENO!

as i was about to sleep kanina my sister called me and told me that we have a new cat. He's name is Kieno. he's color black, a Siamese Cat. :D i wanted to hug him tight. hehehe. maybe i will do the loving tomorrow when i regained my energy again. hehe.

I WANT THIS TO BE A HAPPY SUMMER

i have been staying here in my house for half a school year. it is summer NOW! i want this to be a happy and memorable summer for me. :) 

it's been a week that i've lie low in front of the computer and now i am getting addicted again. i should be on my bed right now sleeping but i can't even touch the door knob of my room. the temptation of the computer is irresistible. its like i wanna make out with this. err. Just kidding. Lol. i am not a freak to make out with this computer.